July 22,2016

Dear Jason,

How are you? How is the food up in Heaven? I decided to write this letter to you instead of mom.

Nightmares

1) Jumping across a 20 foot canyon.

I first succeeded was so scared at first. Then I jumped. I landed safely on the other side.

Then Tammy ( my younger sister) tried to also jump across. I was very nervous and afraid that Tammy would fall into the canyon. We were allowed to catch the person once they made it across. some people made it across

Only to fall backwards and die. Suddenly, I saw one of my friends Romen. We were camp counselors many years ago. He wanted to help.

I was resistant but I knew only one person was allowed to catch Tammy.

Romen was much taller than me.

I asked him to be the one to catch tammy. Tammy made it across. I was relieved.

Dream 2

Dear Mom,

I had the cutest dream in which my one year old cat max met me in a diner. I picked him up. He was talking. He told me that he loved me.

There was a elementary school teacher at the table. she told me that max had memorized a speech and that the

I love you was part of a script.

Then max turned into a 4 year old boy and I was in his preschool.

I love you mom. See u tomorrow.

Have you seen grandpa and grandma. You will be happy that my friend nick and my girlfriend angi are building a recording studio in my house.i have a new Mac and I am using a program called logic.

Lauren and I are finally recording the song that I wrote for you. Song of hope.Tammy and Darli are visiting Israeli think dad is with them saw dafna and Talia and Elliot and it was fun.we had a family lunch with tammy and darli.

Dear Jason,

I feel guilty that you passed away and I could not help you.i wanted you to get help with your bipolar.I wish you didn't choose suicide. God do I miss you.
I remember when you got sober for a few years.I will never forget how you taught me how to read.

July 20,2016

Dear Mom, 

It was great meeting you while I was asleep. I was in a taxi cab at the Westside Pavillion. You knocked on the door.

You looked you were around 25 yrs old. You were wearing a black dress which I have never seen before.

You had two bags from Macy's. You just opened the door and you told me that we are going home to our condo in Culver City. Love you mom. Can't wait to see you tommorow.!

uly 17,2016

Hi Mom, 

I love you so much.How are u?Have you seen jason around?

Last night I had the coolest dream about you. It was the best dream I ever had.

Angi. and I were driving. Angi. I hope you are not reading this. Anti.is still in bed with her cat grip but my cat max is running around the room. Everytime max approached grip, griz. makes a loud his.

Max never seems to learn but Angi. and I trying to train Max.

Tammy told me and Angi that we would have lunch on Sunday at 530pm at Whiskey Red’s in Marina Del Rey.

When I arrived, Tammy was there with your Darli ( my niece). Dafna was there with her 2 kids. Talia ( 6yrs old) and Elliot ( 4yrs old). Our nurse Gail was there and you’re best Israeli friend Ziva was there.

I spoke with Ziva. She always tells me that you(mom) wanted me to start tutoring English and Biology again.

I told Ziva that me and Angi have one student.

“ Ziva, you are going to be so happy. Do you remember you told me to write  a letter to you everyday?”

“Yes Danny. Diva, I got this new mac pro. My friend builds macs for rock stars. My new mac has Protools and Logic programs. Me and Angi can record songs like a professional real studio.”

Tammy told me that she is going to Israel for a few weeks. I told Tammy not to go because it might be dangerous.

Talia and Elliot were 

So mom, last night you visited me 2 times

Dream 1

1) You called Angi and I. Angi was driving her Toyota SUV. She was driving fast on this curvy mountain road.

Anti always drives fast. So you called us and you said,

“ I am in a restaurant near Pico and Robertson. How long will it take for you and Angi to get here?”

“ I don’t know. We will be in LA area in about 15 minutes.”

 I knew that it would take more than 15 minutes but if I told this to Angi should might not take me.

Dream 2

2)In this dream, you(mom) were in the hospital. You seemed to be ok. Tammy(younger sister), Dafna( older sister), Gail ( nurse) and myself were in a hospital room( probably UCLA?)

. I think you were in a wheelchair.

You were given a diet from a previous doctor.  Tammy was talking about how the diet had too much sugar.

Dafna and I were a few feet away from you. A male doctor came in the room. Dafna. and I noticed him right away.

“ Tammy, the doctor is here.” Tammy was talking about mom but she was sitting far away from us.

The doctor said,  “ There seems to be a lot of sugar in you’re mom’s food.”

3) I am in high school. I was taking a test where I had to write an essay.It might have been University High School?

I actually  went to Uni. I kept writing my essay. It was a test. The teacher said to me

“ I think you’re done Danny. Why don’t you just turn your essay in?”

The essay didn’t seem complete. I had to go to the bathroom. I found a bathroom. 

It seemed like the smallest bathroom I have ever been in. It was so small that I decided not to go.

4) I was camping with Angi.  We were missing some food. There was a guy there also camping. I asked him if he liked my favorite band TOOL.He said yes. Then he said  “ Danny, please help me.” He had lost his cat. I helped him. 

I asked him if he had an email and he told me that it was his work email and that he could not give it out.

mom and jason. lauren and I are doing some improv comedy. dont worry mom , i am sober. in the skits i sometimes play a none 

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=FVs-c1iucc8&list=PLtuZWgOSZobcb3DLu944VDQzLipjZn4yg

dear mom and jason. 

last night i had kind of a nightmare. i will email you photos of my cat max and angi's dog decca. i am sure they have laptops in heaven.

So in this dream there was a cat trying to kill Dekka. I saw decca and he was on the ground not moving.  i screamed angi's name. angi came and decca was ok. max kept running away and i kept trying to catch him. max is about one year old and angi calls him a teenager.

The other part of the dream happened near mom's condo. Some realestate agent offered to help me see your ( mom' s condo). I am so sorry mom that we have to sell your condo. we need to pay the nurses back

I know that you wanted me to live there. please be happy that i live with angi and we have a recording studio. gail ( our nurse) told me about he conversation with you. you said that you had 2 wishes

1) that me and my sisters would become closer.

me, tammy and dafna are closer. i am also closer to dad.

tammy and darli are taking me and angi to dinner.

tonight. i also ran into my friend nick and the AA musicians meeting.

he built me a mac pro book. it has LOgic, an amazing program to record.

angi  is helping me write lyrics, and singing on key.i have sing don henley boys of summer in key.

i love you mom and jason. i hope i can see u tommorow.

July 15,2016

Hi Jason,

How are you? I am sorry we have not been able to talk since around 1998. God , do I miss you.

Mom moved to heaven about 5 months ago.

         Last night I had a nightmare. I don’t know if you are aware that mom was fighting cancer.  I wish I could have saved her from the cancer. Mom was like an innocent lamb. The cancer slowly ate her alive.

         Last night I dreamed that mom was in an isolation room.  She was not in a hospital. Her isolation room was in a forest. I was visiting mom.

         A nurse told me, “ Danny, you’re mom was unconscious. She just woke up. She is dying of cancer. I know you are so sad but you need to be positive.  You will need to hide your sadness. Don’t look depressed in front of mom.”

         Tammy and Dafna were already in the room. Mom was talking.  It seemed that she was leaning forward.

         It seemed that mom was saying something to Tammy. I could not hear what mom said?

          I stepped in front of Tammy to see mom. That is all I remember.  This is the second time that mom has visited me. Jason, after you went to heaven, you used to visit me in my dreams almost every night for about 3 years.

We were riding bicycles and flying in the air. I said, “ Jason, what are you doing here? People are telling me that you passed away.”

         You said, “ Danny, tell the people that I am still alive.” In the morning I would wake up and I could not find you. Jason, please come back. We all want you back.

Hi mom. I love you.how are you? Last night I had the strangest dream. Tammy, Dafna and I will were in the dream. There was a school bus full of kids.
Dafna was supposed to go with them. I went with the kids myself. We came to a classroom inside a temple.We sat down.Our family friend rafi was on a ladder. behind rafi I could see a view of israel. I saw an ocean surrounded by green trees. Rafi said that the united nations was not going to make israel a state.